Don’t degrade or insult yourself by comparing yourself to the women around you.
Good or bad. Don’t compare.
It will not help. It will make you more miserable.
You are a slave of Allah, unique in your own way. You have a role to play that is unique. Utilise everything Allah has blessed you with to serve His Deen,to benefit mankind for the sake of Allah. Keep learning and improving yourself for the better.
Be who you are as long as you are not doing anything that is haram. Make Islam, Allah’s Deen, a priority in your life. Keep striving and pray to Allah to keep you steadfast.